Starting Over at 50+: My First Video About Courage and Reinvention

I did the scary thing… and it changed something inside me

Dear friends,

For months now, well years even, I’ve wanted to share my voice more openly. I’ve dreamt of speaking to women like me — women who’ve been through pain, loss, reinvention… and who are still standing.

But I was scared. I worried I wasn’t ready. I lost so much with this attitude. So so much. Always believing that I need to learn more, study more. I was following my pattern. I was scared that my voice wasn’t enough. One more book, one more course, one more diploma.
Until something shifted — and I decided that being imperfect and brave was better than being silent and stuck.

So I posted my very first YouTube video where I talk about what I wanted to talk about for a long time. The sound isn’t great. My lighting was moody. But my heart was all there. I showed up for me.
That alone is a victory.

🎥 You can watch it here Reinvent yourself after 50
💬 I’d love to know — have you ever done something that terrified you, and then felt proud afterwards? Proud in spite of a mountain of imperfection?

To the women reading this and to the men as well:
If you’re holding back your voice, your art, your truth — this is your sign. Don’t wait. Begin now.

🌱 I realised that what I just did say to myself in order to do what I was so scared off was :

• I believe in myself enough to begin.

• I don’t need more studies.

• My voice matters.

• Even scared, I can still show up.

As a multiple trauma survivor, I know exactly what fear feels like. I don’t even know what it’s like not to be scared, to be honest.
I’ve carried fear with me since I was a child, through my young adult years, and now as I continue to evolve, is still here. It’s never fully gone, but I show up anyway.

Every single day, I face fear, yet I keep moving forward. I keep creating. I keep speaking. I keep searching for a place I belong to. And that’s my message to you:

Even when fear is close, show up.

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There’s something else I need to say — something that’s been sitting quietly in me for a long time:

I’ve spent most of my life searching for a place where I truly belong.
Not just where I can work or function, but where I can bring the whole of myself — my experiences, my skills, my art, my story — and feel like I fit.

But I’ve never quite felt that.
Not fully.

I’ve always been the one who adapts, the one who needs to reinvent herself again and again and again.
The one who blends in.

The one who quietly adjusts, carries on, and keeps going — even when something feels… not quite right.
Even when exhaustion melts the mind into fog,
and everything feels heavy and shapeless —
like trying to think through jelly.

And still… I go on.

And lately, I’ve been asking myself:

💭 What if I could create that place instead of searching for it?

What if this — this blog, these videos, this creative corner of the internet —
what if this becomes a kind of home?

A place for women like me (and maybe like you), who carry stories that don’t always fit the mould. By the way I know men feel like this as well.

So if you’ve ever felt like you didn’t belong —
not in your workplace, not in your family,
not in your country, or even your body —I want you to know:

🌱 You’re not alone.

In a society where women over 50 are made to feel invisible —
overlooked in the job market, ignored in boardrooms, and erased from cultural narratives — our very act of showing up becomes revolutionary.

Speaking our truth.
Connecting the dots.
Calling out the lies we were sold — about our worth, our voice, our place.

This is no longer about asking to be seen.
This is about claiming our space. Carving our space!
Not with noise or desperation — also desperation shows its head many times
but with clarity, courage, and the deep knowing that we have nothing to prove and everything to offer.

We’re not fading.
We’re rising.
Together. 🌿

Until next time, be well!

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